||[Jan. 3rd, 2010|02:46 pm]
Location: Washington State, Puget Sound area
Interests: reading, watching movies, learning about Christianity online, writing, hanging out with friends, camping, going to the beach, fishing, taking walks, gardening, sewing, and much more!
Denomination, if any: I go to a church whose roots are in the Assembly of God, but as of now, would probably be called non-denominational.
Why did you come to this community?: I want to get to know other people who are interested in living their lives according to God's Word and who are wanting to release themselves to His will.
How long have you been Christian?: I was raised in the Church of Christ but hated it. I then started attending the Catholic church infrequently. I wasn't really into any religion for a while, but then I felt like I needed to change my life. I had a real problem with the whole "Jesus is God" concept, as well as God as a trinity. I began attending a mosque and even went so far as to convert to Islam, wearing hijab and everything. But I couldn't bring myself to tell my family what I was doing so I stopped going to the mosque. I attended a non-denominational church after that, and got baptized even though I didn't really beleive in Jesus as my savior. I stopped going to church for a year, giving in to partying and such, before moving up here to the Puget Sound area. My boyfriend and I decided to begin taking our kids to church after two years of being together, even though we felt iffy about going because we aren't married, and aren't going to be able to marry for a while (because of financial and emotional difficulties). But we persevered and began attending Bayside Community Church in Kingston. There, our wonderful pastor actually took the time to explain to me the truth about Jesus, his sacrifice, and who and what He really is, as well as many other questions I had about God. Something clicked in me, and I found out that I really need Jesus, that His sacrifice wasn't a lie, and He is who He is! So I guess you can say, that I have been a true believing Christian for about four months now, and the change He has made in my heart and thoughts has been awesome!
What made you decide to become a Christian?: At first, I started attending Bayside because my kids wanted to go, and my boyfriend and I decided it would be good for them to have a religious background. We figured on Christianity because we felt it was mainstream. But I started having doubts about whether or not I could continue to take my kids to church when I didn't truly believe in Jesus. These doubts were removed when everything about Jesus was explained to me in a way I understood, and not just put out as something "we have to take in faith" but not understand. But I truly believe now, and this is the first time my religion is actually in my heart and not just an outward show. I decided I truly want to have the relationship with God that only Jesus can provide!
What is your biggest struggle in your faith? Right now, my biggest struggle is the fact that my boyfriend and I aren't married. As a widow, my girls and I get survivors benefits and that is our main source of income, as Craig is going to school full-time at the moment and not working a lot. We are scrimping by the best we can, and the loss of my check would be disastrous. I hope to be married when Craig finishes school and can make up that part of our income. He was also married before and went through a cruel divorce, and I think that he has emotional problems with marriage, like if we get married then I'll cheat on him like his ex wife did. I've talked about all this with my pastor, and although he is adamant that we should be married, he understands what we are going through. We don't want to separate until we can be married because of the emotional damage it can do to our kids, since my oldest daughter was old enough to remember her father when he died, and is already emotionally insecure. And my youngest knows no one but Craig as her dad! This is just an area that I pray about constantly and have decided to await God's will and timing.
Any thoughts or questions for the rest of the community? Don't let yourselves just become a "Sunday Christian" but make your faith part of your everyday lives!
Any questions for us?:
Any new Christians, how did you cope with very close friends who aren't Christian and don't understand the changes in your life? How do you deal with questions like: why can't you party down anymore? or why are you suddenly going to raise your children to be pure and modest?